Magick and Self-Esteem

None of us is perfect. Everyone on this earth has his/her personal flaws. No one is an exception. Any good interrogator or psychiatrist knows to keep searching until a weak aspect of the personality is hit upon to make the subject crack.

My point here is too many people are down on themselves. I have studied extensively concerning the mind and such, especially since coming to Satanism. Satanism is a religion of advancing the mind and soul into the godhead. Few people have any idea as to just how open to suggestion the average human mind is. This is especially true in the early years of life when the mind and soul are being formed and imprinted upon. This sets the foundation for the rest of the entire life. That old saying, "Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life" is a crock of shit. Everything we do or do not do will create the foundation for success or failure in our future. This is not to say one cannot change, what I am saying here is everything we experience and do in our earlier years establishes a foundation for better or worse.

Oftentimes, a child's early years are filled with plenty of putdowns and insults that sink deep into the mind and soul and establish a foundation of self-hatred. This runs deep. I have read some messages in the Teens for Satan e-group where a few kids experienced unwanted thoughts of blasphemy towards Satan during a dedication or ritual. These thoughts are repressed negative emotions resulting from low self-esteem and repressed self-hatred. The mind at some point or points in the life was programmed to create self-sabotage. Why the thoughts? Because those thoughts act to hurt and destroy the one who is having them.

As children, we often hear "You're stupid!" "You'll never amount to a fucking thing!" "You're worthless, ugly," etc. Many are blamed for their parents having to get married. This was much more common of old. This sort of thing goes on and on and on and into adulthood. Another is body image. Few have a perfect body and those who do, ageing will change all of that. in addition, the Jews work overtime in the fashion industry to encourage anorexia nervosa and sterility in bearing children. Unless - for women, one is about 5"4; weighs around 100 lbs, wears size 6 shoes, finding clothes can be a problem. I have seen enough of this shit. At one time, I had perfect weight, as I worked out roughly 30 hours a week or more. I did this because I loved it. I have had to wear men's clothing and shoes for most of my life, as much of the clothing designed for women does not fit properly. This shit is intentional. The clothing made for women in many stores is totally unreasonable. Yet, I have seen many women put themselves down because they cannot fit the image put forth by the Jewish controlled fashion industry. I could go on with this much further, but this is not a sermon about women's fashion.

My entire point here is each and every one of us should be the best we can be. For those with low self-esteem, finding something you are very good at (yes, there IS something, and more than likely more things) and working at it. Everyone has a talent in a certain area.

Those who are serious about magickal practice MUST rid themselves of low self-esteem. The mind has been programmed to completely fuck you. THIS MUST BE UNDONE!! Take healing for example, when there are nagging hang-ups, then the issue of whether you DESERVE to be healed will come up. Same thing with black magick as well. Do your enemies DESERVE to be punished? When you have subconscious hatred of yourself, the subconscious mind, and energy, which are neutral act accordingly to they way they have been programmed. When one's mind and soul have been impressed upon to hurt him/herself, they act accordingly. Oftentimes one is not even aware of this and is bewildered as to why there are horrid unwanted thoughts that intrude and cause pain.

The good news is each and every one of you with low self-esteem can REPROGRAM your mind and soul with contrary positive affirmations. Don't expect miracles overnight, but this must be consistent and long lasting until all of the negative thought patterns and forms are completely gone. Just saying in your mind "I love myself" "I accept myself" 'I want and deserve the best for myself in every way that will bring happiness and joy into my life" - affirm this in your mind whenever negative thoughts or doubts creep in. Affirm it to yourself several times a day. Some people complain their magick isn't working or the results are not what they truly desire on a conscious level. Opening the mind and soul to power is breaking down walls. You can't master steps for and five for example if you haven't yet gotten past step one.